I'm not dead yet!
so i haven't posted regularly in....6 months or more? anyway, i'm not dead, i've been reading yours regularly, but i fell out of the habit of updating.

i guess instead of being specific, i should give a general update of whats happening in my life.

my parents are getting divorced. you don't have to freak out, i'm fine, they are fine, my sister is fine, its pretty amicable, and apart from the money aspect its coming at a good time, because i'm moving out soon anyway and it won't be as weird for them to separate once i'm already moved out. christmas next year might be weird though. i'm trying to focus on the things that directly affect me - when is my mom moving out, are they still going to be able to pay for my rent and food while i'm at college, etc. and leave the emotional relationship stuff alone, cuz its none of my buisness.

dad has instantly turned into a bitter divorcee although they are still living together (kind of - mom moved into the spare room). i was watching a show with him and they were talking about depression and said something like "we may be able to find the cure for dipression" and dad says "divorce?"

mom is looking at it more as a big life change, and seeing where she wants to go from here, and is trying to create her ideal life for herself. that is totally awesome and i',m happy for her, but it makes her really boring to talk to. she's into this new cult of being rich. she's joined a new multi-level marketing business where she sells vitamins and facials kits. they work really well, her wrinkles are visibly decreasing even to clueless me, but they are kind of expensive. i think $350 or something, and you have to buy new gells for it every month. she's also started up her massage business seriously, and is doing well and getting new clients. if any of you in the slo area want or need a massage, or you are thinking of getting someone a really nice gift, she's the person to go to. she is way better than most people in this area, and i'm not just saying that because she's my mom. so she is a little more expensive, but its totally worth it. so my mom is doing great, but she only wants to talk about new sales she's had and other boring crap.

i got accepted to San Francisco State and will be there next fall. i am SO EXCITED to finally get to go to real college. the campus is beautiful, and Alisha said rooms in the sunset district aren't too hard to find. that would be amazing, because its a beautiful neighborhood and its the closest one to school. i'd like to not drive regularly while i'm there, so walking to school would be excellent. also, the next closest neighborhood is the mission district, but that is more shady, and i think with my limited street smarts it might not be a great idea, though i'd be willing to live there. dad has even worked out a scheme where i MIGHT not have to work my first semester or first year even! that would be fantastic, and i've got my fingers crossed. the one thing about the divorce i'm worried about most is that its rather expensive, and i'm worried about it affecting me and Bern, since we are both moving out in the same year.

Bern is going to a 4 month trades school program in Orlando, Florida after she graduates. she's going to become a personal trainer, like at the gym. apparently when mom looked it up, all the ones in southern california were full. i hope she moves back to california after she's finished, because i don't want to be too far away from my baby sister. california's big, and we'll likely be at opposite ends of it, but i'd like to be in the same state.

in more recent news, i don't have my grades yet because cuesta sucks big sweaty balls. i'm signed up for next semester, and apart from having my first class with my friend Michelle, i'm not excited at all to go back to school. but i don't have to for two more weeks, hahaha! Bay came to visit all us SLO folks for new years. one of the reasons he came up was to take a motorcycle training class, but it was canceled without them telling anyone. so he may be coming back up in a month or so to do that for reals. and speaking of exes, i though i was supposed to hang out with Katey today, but she never called me back. we're hopefully getting a new computer today for the house, because ours is finally dying, after working like crap for the past year or so.